Take it you like someone? If so, who do you like?
my boyfriend

Any sexual stuff happen in the past two months?
lol wtf no, why would it -_-

Is your phone right next to you, or at least close by?
yes

What windows are open on your computer right now?
tumblr & itunes

Anything you would like to say to someone?
i cant forgive you

Last place you went besides your house? 
down the block

Have you ever wanted someone so bad, and then they completely stopped talking to you?
-____________- i hate you

Is your phone a touch screen?
Yes

Who is the last person to call you?
my boyfriend

What was the last movie you watched?
Alice in wonderland

What are you doing tomorrow?
jogging & chilling with my boyfriend

What would you do if your parents walked in on you having sex?
i’d be like “ohhhhhhh shit!” & roll off the bed in slow-mo. 

Was 2011 a good year for you?
i guess

Do any of your friends dislike each other?
idk

Who knows your biggest secret?
um, my ex i guess

Do you think anyone has feelings for you?
my boyfriend tells me he does all the time

How do you know?
he tells me all the time.

Do you care if people hate you for no reason?
there’s always a reason… usually a stupid reason

Are you in a good mood?
not really, im tired & i cant sleep.

Do you think ex’s can remain friends?
yeah i have a couple.

Were you single on your last birthday?
oh yes

Are you starting to realize anything?
yes
  
Have you ever thought about giving up on someone, but couldn’t?
yes.

Do you follow rules or break them?
i do what i want lol 

Are you currently looking forward to anything?
weight loss

Could you go a day without eating?
no. 

How many bracelets do you have on your wrists right now?
none

What are you doing right now, besides this?
sitting in front of my laptop topless.

When you listen to a new song, do you usually play it over and over?
if i love it, it’ll be on repeat for two days.

Do you scream stuff out the car window?
nah, that’s stupid

You’re single, right?
no.

How’s that going for you?
good, except i can’t really flirt & shit… lol 

Has anyone laid on your bed besides you?
yes

Who’s the first person you spoke to in 2012?
my mom

Do you prefer being called your actual name or a nick name?
my second name, it’s more familiar to me.

Do you ever want to get married?
eh

Is there someone who makes you blush when you just say hi to them?
no

How was your Saturday night?
grrrrrrrrreat! 

it seems like all my life i’ve been stuck at “just enough” just enough to get my by in school, just enough to get me to fit in my new jeans, just enough to keep you around a little longer, just enough to keep myself sane. i never minded the thin line between just enough & not enough. many times i’ve tried to scratch the wall & tear it down. the wall keeping me from doing more than average, but something as simple as a splinter would set me back. many times i’ve ignored it it all. it’s like everything’s alright as long as i’m doing enough, once that becomes less than required i freak. like in school, the last week before graduation i busted my ass in every class just to get some extra credits. kind of like in relationships where i’m passive about obvious issues & once those issues manifest themselves in ways that threaten my relationship, whatever kind, i do & say anything possible to prevent any further damage. looking at these situations from another angle, i did “just enough” to save my own ass. i never tried to heal or mend the damage. i hide them, throw them under the bed & never look back again. & late at night when i have no one to talk to i can hear them talking to me. wounds open & all i ever do is throw salt in them to shut them up. but we all know they only get worse. & as they get worse, more painful, they get louder at night; so loud i can barely hear myself. so i write. it’s easier for me to write because i will not be interrupted.